People In My Life

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I'm always afraid I have met all the best people I was destined to meet, even though I know I have not met all the people I don't know I will love yet. 



I think the fact that I feel so free to be a loner is because I know that I am actually not alone. I know there's no risk. I believe if I disappear for years, I'd still have a spot back home, a spot in someone's heart.



I had a best friend who told me about how life is like a train. People get on and get off the train when they've reached their station and it's okay. The irony was, we were talking about other people and I never thought we even had a stop station in the other's life, but then we had.



I'm excited to meet new people in my life but something doesn't feel right inside, I feel inhibited, closed off, and ingenuine. With so much time alone for self-reflection, I've found my problem. I compare every new people with the people I've crossed path with in my life. I'm scared to go through the fragility of building a deep connection and picking up the broken pieces when it collapses.



I guess that's the problem with adults. We have experienced heartbreak at certain point in our lives, and we are all so cautious and lonely now. We are just heartbroken people meeting heartbroken people, each missing the people who did the breaking. We are so cautious, our walls are built so sturdy and high, we've built a maze, where even we are lost in. 



In conclusion, I have commitment issue now. 

I love to carve my mind into words, to trace my heart on paper. Here, to type as my voice sings inside my head. Embarking on an adventure of self acceptance, self love, self improvement and soul searching. I wish to share it, the ups and downs. Perhaps I could inspire someone to finally start their overdue pilgrimage, or to be a friend to someone who is on the same hike. Expect personal stories, lessons learned, controversial opinions, fanfictions, honest reviews and emotional rants. You can call me Tortoise! FUN FACTS ABOUT ME: *Age:23 (still as confuse as ever!) *Zodiac sign:Cancer *Personality: INFP-T *Goodreads:https://www.goodreads.com/tortoiseteoh

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